Listening to: Immortal Technique
Reading: Lord of Chaos
Watching: Ghost In The Shell

On Nihilism
Nihilism can appear very complicated because in our present moral milieu it's necessary to describe it in the terms of negatives and being against this or that. That’s wrong, it's about accepting what is and working within that framework to generate a lifestyle of efficacy and natural perspective. You don't need to believe in God or Beelzebub or anything else that can't be verified or tested in any way. You don't need to believe that human nature is intrinsically evil or in original sin. It takes so much vain effort to struggle with good and bad. Normal people literally torture themselves with ethical and moral quandaries in self-created dungeons that ultimately never matter. For this reason the nihilistic philosophy takes a beating in the arena of ideas because it's just a nothing ideology. That's why I like to call it an anti-ideology. It simply doesn't play by those rules because those rules are arbitrary; they exist only in the social-mindset. And if other people want to live within that self-torturing, intellect numbing fantasy world then I'm not going to stop them; have fun ... hating life.

It is important to realize too that Nihilism isn’t like every other ideology that places a vague future goal in primacy and forces everything in the present to fit that fantasy. Nihilism is a counter-order, it is the opposite of every other ideology and theology that seeks to impose an absolute conception of the way everything should be because that’s simply not how things really work. Life can’t be controlled by an artificially concocted single universal answer or by building a perfect order that will last forever. Nihilism operates with the expectation that the future and its needs are always unknown and all we can really do is prepare ourselves to fit the present and try to meet whatever challenges arise in the ongoing process of existence; thus Nihilism isn’t concerned so much with the aftermath as it is with the here and now. – Nietzsche, Beyond Good & Evil


A list of 50 movies. Good movies. Movies that I actually remember watching and that in some way have had an impact on me. Mostly Hollywood titles, but also a few Japanese films. This was hard to come up with. A lot harder than I thought it would be, you should try it.
1. Nightmare Before Christmas
2. Queen Of The Damned
3. Interview With A Vampire
4. American Beauty
5. Corpse Bride
6. Requim For A Dream
7. A Clockwork Orange
8. Fight Club
9. Shaolin Soccer
10. Cheech & Chong
11. The Place Promised In Our Early Days
12. Cruel Intentions
13. Nightwatch
14. Casshern
15. Se7en
16. Zoro
17. Crying Freeman
18. Fear & Loathing in Los Vegas
19. Perfect Blue
20. Lord Of The Rings Trilogy
21. The Matrix Trilogy
22. The Breakfast Club
23. Porco Rosso
24. Ninja Scroll
25. Heavy Metal F.A.K.K 2
26. 15 Minutes
27. Braveheart
28. Equilibrium
29. Ice Age 1 & 2
30. Minority Report
31. The Last Samurai
32. Pirates Of The Carribean
33. Manchurian Candidate
34. Ghost In The Shell 1 & 2
35. Kill Bill 1 & 2
36. Twin Dragons
37. Lupin III movies (There are 7 of them)
38. The Usual Suspects
39. Waynes World
40. Donnie Darko
41. Tokyo Godfathers
42. Trainspotting
43. The Butterfly Effect
44. Battle Angel Alitta
45. The Fast and the Furious
46. Vampire Hunter D
47. Half Baked
48. The Brothers Grimm
49. xXx
50. Hellboy


I should probably start studying now. I write exams in just over a week. These are the exams that can get me into university…and I’m still not stressed about it, I just can’t find the motivation to really care. Is it a good or a bad thing to not be able to get stressed?